J

For you.

I realised that I still.. very much love you.
Days of me saying that "That's it.. I'm gonna let him go", don't exist to me anymore.
It was a hard one and a half week..
But I'm not going to be so happy too soon,
Things have only just started, it has to continue this way to make things back to what they were again.
You thought me how to first trust myself, and to respect others.
Next biggie... is that lying isn't going to get me anywhere and that I have lied to you countless of times though I never meant to. So here's my last big apology for all I have caused and for all that I have hurt.
Never will I lie to you again, but if I do (hopefully not), for some good reason, I will own up for my mistake. I won't keep it to myself and you finding out yourself. It hurts more this way.

Forgive me and I swear, I will treat you and love you like no other. I'm not going to loose you again.

You make me complete. Without you, I bleed in the inside.
Drowning myself in my own misery,
Blaming myself for my own causes.
Wishing you are right next to me,
Telling me how things are going to be fine.
As you are my leaning shoulder,
The one who will guide me when I can't see.
You make everything around me complete.
And til you tell me that everything's going to be fine,
I'll still be bleeding in the inside.
Searching for the words to tell you,
How much I love you and that I never meant to hurt you.

So I didn't say this in awhile, and I know that I still do.
I love you.