The past... and present.
Mood= Lifeless
Song= Usher & Alicia Keys - My Boo
I remember.. not too long ago when i was always being told how much they missed the 'old bern'. I'm refering to when I was in grade 8 when nothing mattered and all i wanted to do was have a good ass time, i didn't give a shit about anything, and life was basically... perfect. I have to say that it was cause i had want i wanted, i had the most awesome friends on earth and never one day, where i'll frown.
I was always happy, classes seemed more 'enjoyable', i was actually close to cris, faris, marc, oscar, grace then. Now, cris and i, are still friends, yes, but we don't fool around in class, lunch anymore. No.. not really. (2 main resons behind that, the past and... John). How him and faris used to carry me around school cause i was too lazy and i was helping them 'work-out', cris and i eating all the time in french class, always freezing up cause we sit directly under the air-con, him always helping this lazy bum out on her hw. In grade 9, how he would give up his lunch just to go to the library with me to finish my hw, us being partners in dance class.. but that was only for the first half of the year.
Faris, one hell of a fucker in grade 8. I remember how we were so ass close, and i was the 'summer crush'. haha.. there's a story behind that. how i'll tell you every single thing cause i knew, you were one of my closest friend. we will always fool around in class, do shit behind nico's back (haha! i'm kidding on this one, we were pretending), us always up into something bad, THAT FUCKER WENT DOWN ON HIS KNEES IN HOMEROOM TO IMITATE SOME SHIT! and science class with you, prananda, cris, oscar and i on one table, god it was soo fun! i remember you guys will ALWAYS talk about sex or anything relating to sex and once, prananda lit his hair on fire! But the bad things about it was that.. it started smelling real bad after some time. Now, we talk.. but not as much. Or at least i don't tell him about my personal life anymore and there's also a reason behind that. I can tell that both faris and i, have changed... we are not as... playful as we used to be. He's more kept away and I'm more.. upset most of the times. Not all changes are good.
Grace... woman. Don't know what i'll do without her. She kicks ass! ok.. so she may be half way round the world but we know how to keep it going. In grade 8, when we were best friends (still am), we would do everything and anything together. We were.. inseperateable. Still remember those bitch fights in math class, water fights, sharing food, copying homework, shopping til we go broke, paring up for pe, not getting busted in music class even if we don't do our hw, sleeping in history and english class, smsing in english and history class, putting make up in the girls bathroom, you having Marc as your 'husband' and Oscar as my 'husband', chilling in the hotel swimming pool and taking tons and tons of pictures, and... the final day, graduation. How we were so excited about it and.. arrived late to Goodwood. Nearly missed the photo shot! and camara's wouldn't stop going off. I still have a few ..
faris n oscar huggin
grace, bern n marc again ..
bern, cris n oscar
bern n faris
Now look at how much faris and i changed in a year.
Bern n Faris in grade 8 graduation 02.
Bern and Faris in Prom 03.
I have to say that.. those were happy days. They were...
But then again, when i'm talking about my past.. how can i not include Nico! haaha..
This woman.. he used to be well.. the woman and i was the man. =)I'm actually not gonna say much about nico, but there's a reason to it. So yeah.. point is, he was always there when i needed him.
NOW...
My life now.. haven't really been living but i'm trying to get the best out of what i can. I had tons of friendship problems (yes.. it's actually a normal thing) and all the wrong things are happening.. at the wrong time. Maybe i made myself into who i am now. No one's to blame.. no one else but me. Soemtimes i make wrong decisions, say the wrong tihngs, act wrongly, just basically.. everything wrong. Though i tend to get i want. Most of the times that is.
John, came into my life about 13 months back. I was a freshman in high school and the story goes on bla bla bla. First, he dated fie and there's actually a really cute story to this but i'm too lazy to type it all out. Then that was how i got to know this player (before he was!), the first thing i said to him was in chinese, you like her right? His response was rather.. like attitude problem but i was cool with it. He said back in chinese, it's rather obvious now isn't it? Then we started talking from there and i still cannot remember how i got his number. we started msging in class and well.. he got upset/angry over her. Uh oh.. my bad. Anyways, after that, he got with Julia. Then back to Julia again cause things wouldnt have worked out between us. Then after Julia back to Fie. damn.. but anyways, i'm sure that there are more to that. We started hanging out alot more. things were cool. i have alot of memories from him. too many that it's too much to list. but there was a part where we became 'kor' and 'mei'. we thought that that was all that we could become. but anyways.. I remember i used to run to him about nico and he would run to me about Fie or Julia and quite a few times Amanda C. We would hang out every saturday til late and sometimes sleep over cause ben and i got kick out to sg. those were actually awesome times. hehe.. i miss them. then we had our songs from Joe - I wanna know to Jason Mraz - The Remedy to R.Kelly - Ignition.
He makes me happy.. yes he does. but sometimes.. he makes me so so sick of him but thats usually only when we argue. But then i always wonder.. why him? yeah...
Then this, according to my friends, said that they only saw the 'old bern' when we broke up for the 4 weeks. In a way.. i was actually happier.. that i could be with my friends more often and that Fu can finally not be so scared of actually being close to me. But i did want to get back with John.. i did.
I wonder why the 'old bern' came back in the 4 weeks.
And i wonder.. if she's still around.
John, me and Liz in PS before the 4 weeks.
Cris, Me and Nico.. Picture taken for Aya. I actually really like this picture. During the 4 weeks.
I actually can... see the difference in me. The past.. and present.
Everybody changes.. I didn't exactly change into a better me.. a happier me.
Special thanks to Nico and Geo for helping me with the pictures. My darlings. =)
God dammit.. this took me 3 days to complete.
Song= Usher & Alicia Keys - My Boo
I remember.. not too long ago when i was always being told how much they missed the 'old bern'. I'm refering to when I was in grade 8 when nothing mattered and all i wanted to do was have a good ass time, i didn't give a shit about anything, and life was basically... perfect. I have to say that it was cause i had want i wanted, i had the most awesome friends on earth and never one day, where i'll frown.
I was always happy, classes seemed more 'enjoyable', i was actually close to cris, faris, marc, oscar, grace then. Now, cris and i, are still friends, yes, but we don't fool around in class, lunch anymore. No.. not really. (2 main resons behind that, the past and... John). How him and faris used to carry me around school cause i was too lazy and i was helping them 'work-out', cris and i eating all the time in french class, always freezing up cause we sit directly under the air-con, him always helping this lazy bum out on her hw. In grade 9, how he would give up his lunch just to go to the library with me to finish my hw, us being partners in dance class.. but that was only for the first half of the year.
Faris, one hell of a fucker in grade 8. I remember how we were so ass close, and i was the 'summer crush'. haha.. there's a story behind that. how i'll tell you every single thing cause i knew, you were one of my closest friend. we will always fool around in class, do shit behind nico's back (haha! i'm kidding on this one, we were pretending), us always up into something bad, THAT FUCKER WENT DOWN ON HIS KNEES IN HOMEROOM TO IMITATE SOME SHIT! and science class with you, prananda, cris, oscar and i on one table, god it was soo fun! i remember you guys will ALWAYS talk about sex or anything relating to sex and once, prananda lit his hair on fire! But the bad things about it was that.. it started smelling real bad after some time. Now, we talk.. but not as much. Or at least i don't tell him about my personal life anymore and there's also a reason behind that. I can tell that both faris and i, have changed... we are not as... playful as we used to be. He's more kept away and I'm more.. upset most of the times. Not all changes are good.
Grace... woman. Don't know what i'll do without her. She kicks ass! ok.. so she may be half way round the world but we know how to keep it going. In grade 8, when we were best friends (still am), we would do everything and anything together. We were.. inseperateable. Still remember those bitch fights in math class, water fights, sharing food, copying homework, shopping til we go broke, paring up for pe, not getting busted in music class even if we don't do our hw, sleeping in history and english class, smsing in english and history class, putting make up in the girls bathroom, you having Marc as your 'husband' and Oscar as my 'husband', chilling in the hotel swimming pool and taking tons and tons of pictures, and... the final day, graduation. How we were so excited about it and.. arrived late to Goodwood. Nearly missed the photo shot! and camara's wouldn't stop going off. I still have a few ..
faris n oscar huggin
grace, bern n marc again ..
bern, cris n oscar
bern n faris
Now look at how much faris and i changed in a year.
Bern n Faris in grade 8 graduation 02.
Bern and Faris in Prom 03.
I have to say that.. those were happy days. They were...
But then again, when i'm talking about my past.. how can i not include Nico! haaha..
This woman.. he used to be well.. the woman and i was the man. =)I'm actually not gonna say much about nico, but there's a reason to it. So yeah.. point is, he was always there when i needed him.
NOW...
My life now.. haven't really been living but i'm trying to get the best out of what i can. I had tons of friendship problems (yes.. it's actually a normal thing) and all the wrong things are happening.. at the wrong time. Maybe i made myself into who i am now. No one's to blame.. no one else but me. Soemtimes i make wrong decisions, say the wrong tihngs, act wrongly, just basically.. everything wrong. Though i tend to get i want. Most of the times that is.
John, came into my life about 13 months back. I was a freshman in high school and the story goes on bla bla bla. First, he dated fie and there's actually a really cute story to this but i'm too lazy to type it all out. Then that was how i got to know this player (before he was!), the first thing i said to him was in chinese, you like her right? His response was rather.. like attitude problem but i was cool with it. He said back in chinese, it's rather obvious now isn't it? Then we started talking from there and i still cannot remember how i got his number. we started msging in class and well.. he got upset/angry over her. Uh oh.. my bad. Anyways, after that, he got with Julia. Then back to Julia again cause things wouldnt have worked out between us. Then after Julia back to Fie. damn.. but anyways, i'm sure that there are more to that. We started hanging out alot more. things were cool. i have alot of memories from him. too many that it's too much to list. but there was a part where we became 'kor' and 'mei'. we thought that that was all that we could become. but anyways.. I remember i used to run to him about nico and he would run to me about Fie or Julia and quite a few times Amanda C. We would hang out every saturday til late and sometimes sleep over cause ben and i got kick out to sg. those were actually awesome times. hehe.. i miss them. then we had our songs from Joe - I wanna know to Jason Mraz - The Remedy to R.Kelly - Ignition.
He makes me happy.. yes he does. but sometimes.. he makes me so so sick of him but thats usually only when we argue. But then i always wonder.. why him? yeah...
Then this, according to my friends, said that they only saw the 'old bern' when we broke up for the 4 weeks. In a way.. i was actually happier.. that i could be with my friends more often and that Fu can finally not be so scared of actually being close to me. But i did want to get back with John.. i did.
I wonder why the 'old bern' came back in the 4 weeks.
And i wonder.. if she's still around.
John, me and Liz in PS before the 4 weeks.
Cris, Me and Nico.. Picture taken for Aya. I actually really like this picture. During the 4 weeks.
I actually can... see the difference in me. The past.. and present.
Everybody changes.. I didn't exactly change into a better me.. a happier me.
Special thanks to Nico and Geo for helping me with the pictures. My darlings. =)
God dammit.. this took me 3 days to complete.
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